ack.

For the last month things have easily overwhelmed me. Whether it be getting a B instead of a well deserved A, or failing to complete essays the way I want to, things just don't seem to be going right and I never have enough time for anything.
Now I have to do college applications.
This entire thanksgiving weekend is dedicated to writing essays for my college apps. Will I have a day to rest or have fun? No. I need a break from it all but it just won't leave my mind. My major problem is that with every application I fill out, there needs to be a portfolio or video attached. This is when I start to freaaak. I don't know what to include or what to put in and I seem to be on my own for this.
So far this month, plans have been canceled and things have been delayed all because of this college process that never seems to end.
I'm sure you think this sounds like some kind of death note. I can assure you it is not; I just have a melancholy view of it all... until I can find some kind of hobby or glimmer of happiness through something fun, I'll just have to keep trudging along. daaamn.

edit: naps help a lot :)

-A